Its not easy to describe, but sometimes i wonder if im really here. ive been having flashbacks to london and wondering if actually im back in london, but living where another pacific island culture are living. It seems Im still faced with the same problems and Im still wondering what to do next? Ive discovered I'm probably not going to have a baby soon and that the man i expected to meet, when I came back from london doesnt exsist. It seems all the plans and all the forgotten bits have come alive and I feel like the pieces are coming together but not as I had anticipated. It is possible to let things unravel and trust that the future will be surpreme.This in itself will be a good learning.