sometimes i just think its okey when really its not?in a case like this i shouldnt run or jump or should sit still and wait it out and attempt to get some sort of shit sorted out?Im working for the university now and the union. seems i have fallen into better things, tho the pay is the same as prior.
I woke up today, not sad like i have been for the last week. I think I have decided on a new way for this year called buying books and reading them, Im going to get a builder to build a bookcase as big as the big wall in my living room and layer it with books, all the books, the endless supply, the things that make me happy and start collecting and reading with wit and vigor, why shouldn't I, it seems pointless to lament , and the curiosity of my lament probably holds no fascination for the serious mined love interest
will attempt to go to this gig, though will probably have to spend $50 on taxi and the like to get home, unless my kind flatmate gives me a ride, or unless i just dont drink, which seems unlikely.............
But another point is am I going to be the only women over 30 there and if i am, is going alone makingme look like a loser. Maybe I am a loser and if I just accept that fact and dont push it, maybe then i can have fun and enjoy myself, or maybe ....oh I dont know? sometimes it all gets far too deap.......I guess I am a lonely loser though and there is no point trying to figure it out, I might as well as enjoy myself. cause nobody else can do that for me? Or can they
"All roads might lead to the same place no matter what I don't know."
Stole this quote from drunk in a midnight choir
. Wish i could watch Taxi reruns and curl and up and be protected in my nanas house/
Many a Taxi storyline revolved around the romances of the various employees of the Sunshine Cab Company. :Alex Bobby Elaine Jim John Latka Louie Tony.
saw this band, which were weird, They do banjo covers of ac/dc and motorhead.
Someone also stole my wallet. Me cash cards and new photo phone, and I lost a pile of money when the gas company i hired went into liquidation. Its all a bit difficult.....
still missing london, tho happy to be in Auckland for now